His simple exhale
pried the swollen doors of my heart
the locks and callouses
seized to His words
"Stop" He said..."Just stop"
The rock walls perfected by experience
crumbled with one breath
and lie destroyed at my feet
the sudden exposure and vulnerability
scared me; the unfamiliarity of it all
feelings that I've intentionally scarfed
down--gagging I've buried
in burrows--holes--in my heart
threat swelled in my eyes
with a foreign yet credulous viscosity
holding my head up
I refused to let the tear escape
"It's gonna hurt," I said, "It's going
to burn paths down on my muscular cheeks.
If this tear escapes my strength
will leave me, my protection--my fort
will crumble." I thought
And it happened...
My heart was broken
and stubbornness weakened
it escaped
the tear glided down and softened
the unbearable stiffness of my cheek
and relieved the muscles of my smile
My head bowed to Him
and gave into His love
other tears created their own routes
each remedy softened me
each carried those predetermined thoughts
and fell to the ground
the ground soaked them and sent
those thoughts to the pits of hell they originated from
the disguised strength revealed itself as weakness.
Strength not my own entered me
and allowed me to cry
to drown the tough girl in her on tears
the girl who resided in me so long
and who had me fooled to believe
that's just who I am and how I was born
which, ultimately, was the truth
Until i was born again...but differently
